Deathlihood
A blog of piecing together


Adulthood Trauma and Resilience
Adulthood Trauma & Resilience Three months ago I got ejected from Guadeloupe the country my paternal lineage is from; and a huge part of me that has taken immense resilience to reconnect with. I moved there after two years of travel restrictions with the...
Experimenting and playing with Theobroma Cacao Oil
Entry from my journal back in February 2022. " Today I did some experimenting and playing with the creation of my next creation that has been brewing the past 5 months Theobroma Cacao Oil it was alchemized on the full moon equinox. This oil is inspired by the feminine...

Coming back to sovereign autonomy, safety, confidence and sensuality; full rebirth through the celebration of Zingiber Officinalis Oil
Zingiber Officinalis Oil is a little bottle of super power that has been so supportive in tapping into resilience, creation, birth, and confidence.
Zingiber Officinalis Oil is a testament to the new liberated and free version of myself!
Loving someone and pushing them away breaking this intergenerational cycle and working at healing the mother wound
Ongoing Lessons and learnings from this year (written to myself when I say “ you or your”) - Really work at deeply healing your intergenerational wounds so you don’t project that shit onto others - We all have responsibility and accountability to take and we are all...
Ancestral Healing and Nervous System Regulation Surrounding Money
Ancestral healing is looking at a lot of very uncomfortable emotions that shake your body and nervous system to its core of revelation. I recently went through a financial scare that scared me so much that I started getting anxiety and nervousness that felt so...
On the other side of trauma
I left Mattawa and went to North Bay. I bought some new hair care products, treated myself to some yummy almond croissants at orchards, and worked at moving out of a storage unit. It was a successful regular trip. During the drive, as happens every once in a while, I...

The alchemy speaks volumes of ancestral healing
When I harvest each piece of Plantain, I connect with the earth; I ground, I am present. I observe its surroundings, its growth, I notice the changes within the earth floor as I harvest the speed at which they regrow becomes faster. The smaller plantain pieces hold...
Home making and starting the day in an enjoyable way
We keep coming to face the darkness of the source of our traumas many times in our life in different attempts. This time for me has been spending a month at home for the first time in my life actually, alone. This is a space that has been hard for me to return...
Emotional regulations and teachings of death with my huskies
Growing up within a pack of huskies has been probably the most special thing in my life. That as an adult im coming to have a great appreciation for as it has shaped a lot of my ways of living in a enjoyable way. As a kid and to this day I have always confided in my...
Healing displacement wounds and grounding with Plantain
Healing displacement wounds & Grounding with Plantain I remember to look between my toes, to look deeper between the familiar strands of grass, and I find my home. I find my yearning. I find my peace. Plantain has been at my childhood toes in my family's yard; for...